Hi 11 year old Beth,
I know I’ve caught you in a pretty awkward stage of your life ey? You’re about to start Secondary school, and you don’t really know what’s going to happen next. That feeling of uncertainty, scared of the change, stepping out from the comfort of your small school, with all your friends. Right now your main worries are which colour choker necklace you want to buy from Claires, which sweets to buy after your Swimming lessons and filling the pages of your Football sticker book, and I love that. You have a fun zest for life that you shouldn’t ever let anyone take from you. Say yes more, have fun, do the things you want to do, don’t be scared.
As you get older, smaller worries start to make a bigger impact. I’m afraid that anxiety never really goes away, so maybe if you can try and stop it now it’ll be better? I know things have happened that weren’t part of the plan, and I wish so much I had a real time machine to save you from everything that will hurt you, but when things don’t go to plan, then speak to someone, ask for help. It’s ok to feel scared sometimes.
School is rough, but don’t worry you’ll get to the other side without a scratch. I’m not going tell you it’s the best time of your life because I’m afraid it won’t be, but you’ll carry on through and your grades will be good, you get nothing lower than a C, even in Maths! I know, crazy?
You go through a stage of being a right grumpy wotsit, so try not to take it out on Mum and Alan, they’re only trying to help. Oh yeah I’m afraid you never really get less gawky, and your eyesight is only going to get worse but you learn to embrace it, I promise it gets better. Honestly, nowadays it’s even fashionable to wear glasses. I’m not even joking! Please please remember to wear your retainer all the time though, because damn it’s annoying when your teeth start to go crooked again.
Oh hey, you know you’d always wanted a younger brother or sister, well I’ve got great news. In a couple of years, you’ll have a baby sister, and then 3 years after that an awesome baby brother. I know, amazing right?
You go to sixth form college after school and meet loads of new friends, and enjoy it. But please please stop being so lazy. You know what I mean? Leaving things to the last minute, procrastinating. Your grades are enough to get you by, but you’re capable of so much more. Please don’t give up on your instruments, because when you’re older you’ll regret it. I know that the Cello does not seem cool, and it’s so bloody (sorry for swearing) heavy and annoying, but it’s beautiful. Oh, and don’t keep your voice quiet, go for the choir, I know you’ll love it.
I know that you really want to be a TV/Radio presenter, but sadly you don’t have the confidence to go for it, and at the age of (nearly) 26 you’re in a job that isn’t your dream, but it pays the bills. I’m here to say that whatever you want to do, you go for it, don’t let anyone tell you you can’t achieve anything.
A couple of boyfriends come and go, but you meet a guy when you’re 17 that you think is the best thing since sliced bread. You’ll head off to University, still with him. You’ll sacrifice those notorious first year night’s out to speak to him, but I’m afraid he turns out to be not such a nice guy in the end. But it all gets better don’t you worry. You’ll start Ju Jitsu, and you’ll meet the man of your dreams. You won’t know it at first, but don’t discount him straight away. He’s lush. There will be hard times, long distance, times of not knowing when you’ll next see each other but you’ll get through it, and it’s so worth it.
You’ll move halfway between his parent’s hometown and your hometown and buy a lovely house in the countryside. You miss your Mum and Alan, but you see them often, and speak to them on the phone every day.
Then when you’ve been with your dream man for 5 years, he’ll propose to you, and through blurry, teary eyes, you’ll say yes. Then in the summer of the next year, you’ll get married, and it will be beautiful. You end up choosing the same venue Mum and Alan just got married in. Don’t worry though, this time you don’t have a perm or a dress that’s too short.
Oh, and I almost forgot, you get two cats together. You know you’ve always wanted pets, and you do get one, and he’s the best.
Life isn’t anything like you imagine it will be, but that doesn’t mean it won’t be great. There are so many things that I wish that you get to do that I know you won’t get the chance to, but if we did anything different, we wouldn’t be where we are now. So you make those mistakes and learn from them, you be yourself and don’t be afraid, because I’m proud of you.
Love Beth (The Older You) xxx